Never Forget
Yesterday was the 10 year anniversary of the September 11th attacks. I realized, as I thought back about the events of that day, that I've never written down the experiences or feelings that I had on that day. I know that someday, one of my grandkids will get the school assignment to talk to their oldest living relative about where they were & what they felt that day. I know that I had an assignment similar to that back in high school. We were supposed to interview a grandparent about the thoughts & feelings they had on D Day at the end of WWII. I interviewed my grandpa. As he was telling me about that day, I was surprised at how much he remembered. He knew every single detail about that day. It was a day that was imprinted on his brain forever. September 11, 2001 is the same way for me. I hope that someday when one of my grandchildren ask me about that day, I'll be able to tell them in great detail about my experience, just like my grandpa did with me about D Day. But, I worry that, over time, I'll begin to forget little details here & there. In fact, I think I've already forgotten quite a few. So, before I forget anything else, I have decided that I needed to write down my experiences from that day. My experience isn't very exciting or miraculous, but it did change me forever.
Tuesday, September 11, 2001 started out as a very laid back day for Mike & I. We were living in Lake Charles, LA & had only been married for about 9 months. I was the Chief Meteorologist at my station there & Mike was attending school. We loved Tuesdays that semester because Mike's first class didn't start until 10:30 in the morning. And, since I didn't have to be to work until 12:30, we always slept in on Tuesday mornings. That day was no different. We didn't have a care in the world. Mike's alarm went off at about 9:30 am (Central Time). He got up to get ready for school & I rolled over and went back to sleep. At about 10:00, he came & kissed me goodbye. At that point, I decided to finally get up & get ready. I was supposed to attend a Fall Premier Luncheon in Beaumont, TX to promote the fall programming lineup & to announce the premier of a new newscast that I was to be apart of.
When I got out of the shower, I heard the phone ringing. I let it go to voicemail since I was soaking wet. But, immediately, the phone rang again. I thought that was strange, so I decided just to wrap my towel around me & run to the phone.
I picked up the phone to hear Mike say, "Two airplanes flew into the World Trade Center & both towers have collapsed!"
"What?" I replied. "What are you talking about?"
"The twin towers in New York," he repeated. "They're gone. Someone hijacked some airplanes and flew them into the towers & they collapsed! Everyone here at school is talking about it. Turn on the TV right now."
I ran over to the remote & flipped on the TV. In front of me flashed images of an airplane hitting the second tower, both towers on fire & then the towers collapsing to the ground. They repeated the pictures over and over and over again. I heard Tom Brokaw's voice recapping what had happened over the past few hours while I slept. Two planes had flown into the World Trade Center which had subsequently collapsed. A plane had flown into the Pentagon. And United Airlines had just confirmed that another of their planes had gone down in Pennsylvania. Thousands of people were dead and missing. I sat down on the floor in front of the TV...still soaking wet with my towel wrapped around me. I was shocked that all this had happened.
I was still on the phone with Mike. I repeated to him everything Tom Brokaw was saying. There were four planes down. Were there more? Did these people hijack a few planes, or could they possibly have hundreds of them & there were more attacks to come? Then, I thought of Mike's dad. Mike's dad was, and still is, a pilot for Southwest Airlines. I quickly asked Mike, "Is your Dad flying today?!?" He said that he didn't know & that he was going to call his mom to find out. We hung up & I went back to watching the TV. It was too much to absorb in that moment. I lost it and I began to cry. New York City & Washington DC looked like war zones. Things like this didn't happen in America. Things like this happened in places like Israel & Yemen, not New York & DC.
In that moment, I remembered a conversation I had had with my dad about 10 years earlier at the beginning of the Desert Storm War. I remembered all of us standing around the TV watching CNN broadcast the beginning of that war. I remembered seeing the explosions everywhere & suddenly becoming very scared. I asked my dad if he thought anything like that would ever happen here. He said, "I don't know. But, I know that it would be very hard for something like that to happen here." He went on to explain to me that the US was in a good region geographically. We were bordered on two sides by huge oceans & by allies on the other two sides, so it would be very hard for anyone to attack us because they wouldn't be able to get all their military equipment over here to attack us without us noticing it.
As I sat in my living room on September 11th, remembering that conversation, I realized that he was right. These people, whoever they were, knew they couldn't get military ships or jets, or big bombs over here without being detected. So, they used our own airplanes as weapons to attack us.
As I thought about that conversation with my dad, I realized something horrifying. My dad was flying that day! He had been in Houston that weekend to set up a trade show. In fact, he had driven the two hour drive from Houston to Lake Charles just a few days earlier to visit us & to deliver a TV to us...the TV I was now watching these horrific images on. I was running through what he had told me a few days earlier. I was positive that he told me he was flying home on Tuesday. If there were more hijacked planes, he could be on one of them. I ran to the phone & dialed my parents home phone number. My mom answered right away. "Mom!" I yelled, "Where Dad?"
"He's at work. Why?" she responded.
"He's not flying home from Houston today?" I asked.
"No," she replied. "He flew home yesterday."
A wave of relief rushed through me. My dad was safe. My mom and I talked about what had happened that morning for the next few minutes. She asked me if I knew where Rick (Mike's dad) was & if he was flying that day. I told her I didn't, but that Mike said he would call me when he found out. We talked for a few more minutes & then hung up.
I went back to the TV & sat down on the floor again. Mike called a few minutes later, he had just gotten out of his class & had finally reached someone (I can't remember who) in his family & received word that his dad was safe. Another wave of relief. We hung up & I, again, walked back to the TV. I sat there for who knows how long just watching the images in front of me. Planes flying into buildings, reports of people jumping to their death from the top of the towers because there was no way to escape, people running through the streets of New York with pictures of missing loved ones. I cried some more. We had been attacked & America would never be the same ever again. I still had my towel wrapped around me, but by now my hair was dry as could be. I remembered that I had that Fall Premier Luncheon in Beaumont that afternoon. I didn't know if it would still happen or not. Our country had just changed forever, so something like a premiere party seems so trivial at that moment, but I decided I should continue getting ready just in case it was still happening. As I tried to fix my now matted, knotted dried hair into something semi-normal looking, I kept finding myself being drawn out of the bathroom & back to the TV. I was just in shock. When my hair was done, I quickly put on my makeup, got dressed & headed into work. As I was driving to the station, I heard on the radio that President Bush had flown to Barksdale Air Force Base in Louisiana, just a few hours north of Lake Charles. He had since left for an undisclosed location, but had taped some remarks while at Barksdale. They started playing the sound of the presidents voice. I remember he said that freedom had been attacked that day & that freedom would be defended. I cried.
When I got into work, I walked into a newsroom that was going crazy. Not only was everyone trying to figure out what exactly had happened in New York & Washington DC, but they were also following up on leads that Lake Charles was going to be put on high alert because of the proximity to the nation's oil reserve. Lake Charles basically sits right on top of them, and there was concern that they could be a possible target as well.
As I walked into the room, I asked one of the reporters if the luncheon was still going on in Beaumont that afternoon. He looked at me like I was crazy and said, "Don't you know what's been going on?"
I replied that I did know & that's why I was asking if it was still going on or if it had been cancelled. He responded with, "Of course it's been cancelled! The world is basically coming to an end!" Then tears started coming to his eyes and he repeated himself. "Of course it's been cancelled." Then he walked off.
I walked into the dark studio where my weather office was & turned on the TV. All air traffic across the US was shut down & all airplanes had now been grounded, so it appeared the attacks were over. I started to cry again. I cried for quite awhile...probably several hours as I watched the continuing coverage on TV. After I composed myself, I walked back out into the newsroom & into my news director/main anchor's office. She was watching her TV with tears in her eyes. I said, "Hey Kerry, I know that this doesn't matter much right now, but I just need to know if I should plan on getting a weathercast together for the show, or if you just want to blow out weather all together."
She responded, "I want a 90 second weathercast. Very simple, very brief. Just a few basic graphics & the 5-day forecast. Oh, and why don't you mention the weather in New York. They have a lot of work ahead of them over the next few days."
I don't remember much after that. The rest of the afternoon & evening were kind of a blur. I know I watched a lot of TV. I remember hearing Osama Bin Laden's name for the first time. The networks did 24 hour coverage for days & days following the attack.
That night, we interrupted the coverage to do our local newscast. I remember Kerry almost breaking down several times throughout the show, but she was always able to pull herself together very quickly. I was so impressed with her. We ended the show with a montage of still pictures from that day, put to the song "God Bless The USA." All of us broke down. After the newscast, someone recommended that we all fill our cars up with gas on the way home because gasoline prices were expected to rise to over $2.00 a gallon by the following day. ($2.00 a gallon now seems like quite the sweet deal by today's standards, but back then $2.00 a gallon gas seemed unimaginable. I had paid $.88 a gallon just a few months before...one of the perks of living in a gulf coast state so close to the oil refineries.) So, I stopped at a gas station on the way home. Everything was so quiet. There was no one on the roads. The city seemed almost desolate. Everyone was home glued to the coverage on TV, worried if another attack was already being planned by the terrorists.
After filling up, I headed home to Mike. He was sitting on the couch, watching the coverage. I dropped my bag on the floor & fell down into his waiting arms. We sat there for a couple of hours just watching TV & discussing the events of the day. We finally went to bed around midnight.
I went to bed that night a different girl than the one who had woken up 15 hours earlier without a care in the world. The attacks had not affected me personally. I wasn't in them. I didn't know anyone who was in them. I didn't have a miraculous story of survival, or a story of tragedy like we had heard about that day on the news. But, I had been changed forever. Mike had been changed forever. All of America had been changed forever. It is a day that is imprinted on my brain...just like my grandpa's experience with D Day. I think each of us that were alive on that day will remember where we were & what we were doing when we learned that we were under attack. But, I know that as time goes on, 9-11 will become a distant memory for many, and eventually it will become just a page in a history book. That's why I decided I should write my experience down. It truly was the day that changed America. And, I hope we never forget that. --Lindsay






